I have been a seeker since the age of 15, when I was introduced to the Kabbalah and the work of Theosophical Society founder Madame Helena Blavatsky.
Shortly thereafter, I met my first teacher who gave me the name Selina Maitreya and shared with me the concept of Universal Oneness as taught by the Master Maitreya.
At the time I had no idea how important this meeting was to be in my life.
In my 20’s I placed my knowledge off to the left and entered the world of rock and roll via my first husband, and concurrently began what was to become a long career as a photography consultant.
In my late 20’s and through my 30’s I felt the tug of spirit and began an intensive period of continued study, reading the works of many masters and applying the knowledge I gained in order to make major changes to my personal life.
As I further developed my spiritual beliefs I began to share them with my clients, photographers around the world. My teachings have been utilized as clients sought to develop ways of seeing photographic images that brought their talent to the buying public. Through this consultancy I have written and published two internationally distributed books, authored a column in a major national publication and lectured extensively throughout the U.S. and into Canada.
Possibly one of the greatest gifts my consultancy brought me was my teacher HOPE Gorman. When I met HOPE in my early 40’s I was not in a life or death mode. I did not have any abuse issues at this point, nor was I at the brink of suicide. I was however terribly unhappy. While I had shifted my life out of my 20’s through my spiritual readings and studying, I was now into my 30’s. I was once again at a pivotal point but this time it seemed that I was unable to transfer my spiritual knowledge into my life. I was horribly stuck.
My story is not too different from others; I was in a marriage with a good man, had a lovely house, two great kids, a well developed career, but I was not happy, and had not been for years. I was taking care of everyone, my husband, my kids, everyone but me. There was an endless cycle of car rides, meals to cook, homework to oversee, client calls, articles to write, bills to pay (often barely) and just tons and tons of doing. There was less than ZERO time for me.
You know the saying, “If Mama ain’t happy, nobody’s happy.”
That was me, that was us.
As I looked around wanting help I didn’t even know where to begin, as there seemed no other way to be than trapped. I blamed my husband, the economy, the lousy job market, the world, my parents, my financial situation and then one day I heard:
“You are the crisis. You are the cure.”
I got it loud and clear. No one was to blame, and no one had asked me to do what I had done. I had simply taken on the responsibility for everyone in my world and in the process I blamed everyone else and had lost sight of my only true responsibility: me. Once I stopped blaming others it did not immediately get easy, for I was then able to truly fathom the source of my unhappiness. I realized that there was no knight coming to save me. There would be no day when the world would say, “Ok Selina, it’s your turn to rest.”
I now had the truth that I was indeed responsible for me, but I did not know what to do with that truth.
So I read and I wrote and I read and I prayed. I tried to meditate and I prayed some more. But still I was drowning slowly and consistently.
I felt overwhelmed by my daily life, I felt alone with no sense of how to change anything. While I had studied the works of many spiritual teachers and devoured books on the world’s great philosophies, I still was unable to shift my knowing into my being. I was unable to transfer my intellectual knowledge into true-life experience. I had lots of knowledge of theory, but lacked the ability to practice what I knew. I had no energy left, I had no faith. Enter HOPE.
During this period of my life, I had been hired by a division of the TARGET Corporation to build portfolios for their photographers. I was traveling back and forth to Minneapolis working with a team of 10 photographers; I got to know most of the guys on the team well. One of them, possibly sensing that I needed some guidance, introduced me to a woman who then introduced me to my teacher Janice HOPE Gorman.
I began my teachings with HOPE not knowing what to expect. I wanted guidance but I had never directly communicated with spirit. HOPE is a teacher who channels messages from spirit. Teachings are given directly from the masters and guides who are of the ONENESS. Their sole agenda is to help all beings on Earth come into their spiritual integrity in order to live a life of purpose and light.
Over the course of the next few years (its now been over 10!) I listened, questioned, listened some more and learned how to meditate, pray and then guide myself. Slowly and then more quickly as I began to build my faith and live my life with my values in hand, I began to feel the world open up for me. I made major changes. Bold moves, all of which spoke to my growing sense of divinity and self (although at times others in my “old world” thought me mad) and which to this day I credit with my ongoing happiness.
I ultimately left my marriage and assumed the majority of the daily financial responsibly for myself and my children. Against all odds and many warnings, I mortgaged my house and bought out my husband’s share, guaranteeing my children their home until college. I had no savings, more debt, tons of faith and the ability to work hard.
And work hard I have continued to do, happily.
However, a funny thing happened.
While I may be working harder, I have more time for me, I have time for quiet and my daily life is sweet and even and purposeful. My decisions are sound for me and beneficial to others. My chosen relationships are enlightening, rewarding, exciting and fulfilling for me and for those involved. My children are well, happy and leading lives of substance. Their father and I have a good relationship and just celebrated our older son's high school graduation by jointly hosting a party for him, inviting our friends and extended family.
Five years ago as my life was finding it's flow, spirit had another life changing message for me.
Spirit said that I was to prepare to become a teacher.
They said that I had taken my life and used sprit in a way that was not only a benefit to me but would be of benefit to others if I chose to teach. They told me to begin to bring my spiritual understanding to my photographers and then to continue to reach out to all beings in need of spiritual guidance. They directed me to help students via direct-channeled conversation with them and through my experience of building a life of purpose, a life guided by my spiritual values.
For the last five years I have done exactly that.
I have moved forward as a teacher and I have been teaching students (in person and via phone) around the world, students who are interested in discovering their purpose for being, living that purpose and building spiritual values that will guide them as they journey forward.
If you feel trapped in your life, if you feel that there is more for you than you now experience, but you just don’t know where to begin, if you have been journeying on the spiritual path but still do not feel connected to your Divinity, or if you feel called to live a life of purpose, you feel driven to change your direction in order to know and live your reason for being here.
If you feel the desire to live your Divinity daily, please reach out to me.
I would be honored to be of help to you.